Just a Thought to Share

I love my husband. I love my daughter. They mean the world to me. They teach me everyday that unconditional love is out there. I just pray that I continue to be the best me that I can be for them with the help of God.

A Little Bit About the Real Me

Someone told me today that whenever they talk to me I never seem upset. That I am always happy and that I handle problems well. They asked if I ever get mad or be sad. YES actually a lot of the times I just want to scream and close up, but I don't. My troubles are not for the world to see. Only those in my personal life see that side of me. That boils down to 1 person: my husband, because I can be as vulnerable as I want with him. I know he won't judge me just point me in the right direction. Isn't love great? My daughter does not see me upset even in traffic. I just turn up my music in the cd player and sing as loud as I can like I am totally into the song. "Yeah gurlllll, that's my song!" And I really want to say, "You dummy, can you not drive. Pick up your head and watch what you are doing." Or maybe something worse than that. When I got overlooked for a position at work, I didn't show one sign of emotion in the public. I am human just like everyone else. I just deal with issues as they come and sometimes stepping away from the issue helps. Sometimes the issue works itself out and other times you just gotta pray that it works itself out.

I really just don't like negativity and chaos. I can't function through dysfunction but I maintain. It took a lot to get me here where I am today and I am still working on me. I am not perfect at the least, but I do carry myself in a reserve way.